Change is good

There has been a lot going on in my head lately. Too much to try and distinguish what should be written down and what shouldn’t. Or rather what should be read by others and what should be kept to myself. We finally have an internet connection at the new apartment so I can write when I feel like and publish as soon as I want to. Of course, my previous method of blogging shouldn’t have been affected by the lack of internet connection except that apparently I’m too lazy to save my notepad draft on a USB key so I can publish a post when I get to work.

My heart left for Dublin almost 7 days ago and I miss him dearly. I had been feeling a little disconnected from the whole relationship for a while1 and while I’m not completely sure where I want to go with this blog… I’m finally ready to start talking again. I haven’t been absent due to a lack of something to say, I always have something to say but I needed to find a change.

Moving into the apartment helped except that I’m still relying on my parents a little bit2 and I don’t feel like I’m where I want to be but I’m on the way. I’ve got my tickets, my bags and I’m on the train but I hadn’t realised how long the journey was going to be. I can see that my stop is near though… I just hope there isn’t a detour on the route.

I’m registered with a few employment agencies and one lady in particular was really positive that she wouldn’t have a problem finding me a new position. After about a month or so, she has sent me three job positions and I’ve been selected for an interview with two of them. One was last Tuesday and the other one is this coming Friday. I’m going to keep the details to myself for now because of my belief that I could jinx things by telling too many people. I know it’s silly, but it’s my belief.

Right now I’m trying to figure out how to be more patient. More patient than I’ve alreadyΒ  become since my teenage years. My room mate has a friend over and they have taken over 2 hours to get ready and leave the house. I could have started to make breakfast while they were here but I am a little annoyed that it felt like they were waiting for me to make breakfast, and when I wasn’t doing it they decided to go out for breakfast instead. I don’t like being assumed into a role, even if it is the role I prefer to be in.

But all in all, life is pretty good. Transition is good, but I’ll be happier when I get settled.

How have you all been?

Footnotes:
  1. which partly explains my recent, and very extended absence from blogging[]
  2. I’m borrowing the car until I feel capable of getting work via public transport[]

responses to “Change is good” 9

  1. @Erica: awh I really want to know what happened. I can only assume that it would be job related because you have an amazing family!! The other assumption I could make is that it’s health related and I really hope it wasn’t!! Hope you’re feeling better now!

    @Periapex: I’m already feeling the benefits; while it is tough I can already feel myself becoming a stronger person because of this experience (because let’s face it, I really don’t think this is going to kill me – though I’m still going to touch wood just in case ;P)

    @Michael: hehe thanks for remembering me! Yes I do and I could have sworn I already had you on my twitter?! LOL Did you remove me because I was inactive for so long!?

  2. Moving out and being on your own is both exciting and stressful. At least it was for me. It’s a new stage of life for you and you’ll look back at this time fondly.

    Periapexs latest..Spring Awakening.

  3. I was doing fine until yesterday evening…then life took two steps BACK. (marriage was the one step forward of the equation!).

  4. @Lyndi: Thank you for keeping tabs on me. I know the blog is a bit stale at this stage but I’m nearly settled in the new place and I’m feeling extremely inspired these days πŸ˜‰

    @Cromely: Thanks for the encouragement. I’m actually quite hopeful about everything, just need to get the concerns out there for some perspective you know? For the most part, I think the problems with the roommate stem from the fact that I’m not completely settled so I never want to do anything ‘fun’ whereas he’s easily distracted and would rather do the fun things, you know?

  5. Hang in there. Things sound rough now, but one day all will be clearer. And hopefully, you’ll have some good anecdotes that come out of this point your life, in additional to all that pesky personal growth stuff.

    I’m not sure I could have a roommate again. I haven’t lived with someoen else in 18 years. (Well, except for that 6 months my GF was in between places, but that’s a little different (I guess)).

    A normal roommate with their own friends and what not? Good luck.

    Cromelys latest..Have you played Atari today?

  6. Nice to get a glimpse at what is happening to you again. Hope you resolve the employment issue soon.

    Lyndis latest..Weekend Round-Up – 22 May 2009

  7. i dont know all the details of whats going on with you but i hope things turn around for the better, i’m sure you’ll find the right job soon! πŸ™‚

    Kyms latest..Eight.

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