I haven’t posted anything for Breast Cancer Awareness all week and even though I have one final post coming up for the Breast Cancer prevention series but it won’t come out until next week. So here is a pink rose for your enjoyment…
I’m sure I could’ve done a better job with the above photograph, but the slight blurriness resembles what my eyesight is like when I’ve been crying when I miss him – so it suits. He sent me a dozen long stem roses for valentine’s day this year, and I took this photo 6 days after delivery. They bloomed so beautifully, I couldn’t stop taking pictures of them1.
I’ve had to do a lot of thinking lately as I recently found out that my most recent plan for a career will not go through as I had hoped. Since it was such a new plan, I hadn’t yet had time to come up with a plan B and now I need one. I’m just lucky that I have a job that funds me or I’d be in a bit of a panic. He, being the sweetheart that he is, called me as soon as he got my text informing him of this development. And its such a nice reminder that he loves me. Not that I don’t know, but its always nice to have reminders like that when you’re millions of miles away from each other.
I’m having a little bit of difficulty coming up with an alternate plan because I feel like I’m just not good enough to do anything I want to do. I’m sure I’m just having an off day because my usual frame of mind circles around, “You can do anything you put your mind to.” I don’t really know where the feelings of inadequacy comes from but its here, its real and its very depressing. I’m tying to stay positive, but its not going so well tonight. I’m sure some sleep will help and I’ll feel much better tomorrow morning.
In other news2: Stuart at Secluded Habitat is holding a contest that ends on Oct 253 and you won’t believe what he’s giving away; he’s giving away free hosting! Free hosting! What are you waiting for? Go over there already!