I’m a very different person than who I was when I first started University. I never used to place value on a grade and therefore never got any good grades unless I naturally “got it”. This semester, I’ve promised someone that I would get two A’s. So far so good. But it’s only been two weeks. I’m taking 7 courses and the past two days I’ve skipped class. I’m such a spoiled brat.
I haven’t been able to get up early to get to class because my Daddy’s working on my car. Which means I’ve had to take public transportation. *rolls eyes* I do try not to be that kind of person. Really I do. But I don’t like touching strangers. Especially that early in the morning. The smell of some people just make me want to hurl, no matter how hard I try to convince myself that different people have their different personal smells and they’re allowed to smell that way.
At the same time that I’m itching for a project to work on, I’m dreading the next few weeks coming up right before mid-terms. And then I’m dreading mid-terms. Then I’m dreading the next few weeks after that right before finals. Then, you guessed it, I’m dreading finals. It’s so funny though, how easy procratinating is. And how once you start, you just can’t stop. You start to think of all these other things – productive things – that you can do, simply to avoid doing homework. *shakes head*. I missed writing though. I really really missed it. And it’s been a slow process getting back into the swing of things. But slowly, it’s coming back to me. And though the process for getting back into the swing of writing poetry is taking even longer… I’m getting there.
Never again though.
I won’t stop writing for anyone but myself again. It took too much of my creativity away from me. Completely erased any outlet and made me way too emotional in person. It’s not good. I need the outlet. Why I need an outlet that can be read by strangers is beyond me… but maybe a few more psych courses and I can figure it out. *smirk*
Anyway… I best be getting to some homework. Till next time!