In the friend department… Life just hasn’t been that kind to me. I mean sure, I’ve had close friends. I’ve even had best friends. But I don’t have one now. And I’m sure this is only really hurting because I can’t even rely on my own boyfriend to be the kind of best friend that I need him to be. And probably also because Mariyah’s most recent post got me thinking about what I’ve had and lost. Sure I’m still close to a lot of the people I’ve been close to before I was even old enough to realise what having a social life means.
It doesn’t bother me most days… but I’ve just been made to realise that the talk we had the other night didn’t have much of an effect on him after all – at least not an immediate of an effect as I was hoping for. I know it sounds like I’m only saying I miss you because things aren’t going that great with him. I’m not. I never told you before but a part of me wished I was born in the world that you and your family lived in. It’s connected, simple, soulful and most of all… happy.
I hope you’re well… and that you write me back soon!!