I don’t know where people get this notion that I’m a leader capable of doing great things for any company that I will go and work for. I’m no great leader. I’m a follower. I have no ambition, only what love drives me to do. Okay, maybe that’s a little extreme but I still don’t think I’m as great as everyone seems to believe I am. I need constant approval and reassurance and it’s why my relationships always fail. I never realized it until now, now that my school life is ending and my ‘career’ life is supposedly beginning, but the insecurities that get heightened when I’m in ‘love’ *do* exist in my everday life, I guess I just never let it get the better of me before. Don’t ask me what’s changed and how I’m letting it get the better of me now because I haven’t the faintest idea. But I’m getting really tired of crying.
This post makes no sense. I’m going to bed.
*April, you’re the best… I love your advice, I just hope I can endure as it’s getting harder and harder everyday. Thank you too for the tip on relaxing too, it did help a bit!*