Lost but organised
I finally buckled down and organised my room tonight. I’ve been dying to do it since before I left for Mexico but life would always get in the way1. And I was hoping I would feel better, but I’m still a little bit lost. I seem to have used that description when referring to myself a lot in the last few months… I guess I’m not working hard enough to find myself. Or maybe, I actually like being lost.
I’ve always been the type who needed to feel in control2 but ever since my (for lack of a better term) rebirth while living in Dublin, I haven’t really felt as much need to be in control of very much. Sure, I still like things done a certain way and I certainly still like having a place for everything and everything in its place but I so don’t let things upset me unless I actually have control over them.
Why do I have to have all the answers anyway? I honestly wish I had the sense to be ok with being lost when I was younger because it’s more acceptable to be ‘soul searching’ when you’re not almost 30. To which I say.. bullshit!3 So what if I’m 28 in a couple of months and still haven’t the faintest idea what I want to be ‘when I grow up’ or even have the faintest idea what I want to be doing right now?
No really… what could possibly go wrong?
September 11th, 2009 at 12:49
That’s funny, I’ve been feeling that exact emotion myself, thinking about life and what I’m supposed to be doing with it. I think traveling tends to bring those kinds of thoughts out. I’m not sure.
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September 9th, 2009 at 16:22
Amen! I think being lost, out of control, and confused is the most natural thing in the world. No one person can know or do everything; those who think they can are living in a fantasy land that’s bound to get shattered.
I also think the best solution to not knowing what to do when I grow up is to never grow up.
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September 8th, 2009 at 20:51
Thanks everyone
I guess what I mean is that I still have no idea what is going to ‘fulfill’ me in this life!!
September 2nd, 2009 at 00:01
Im turning 32 this year and been teaching for 9 years now and still dont know if I want to do what im doing anymore.. haha..
ORGANIZATION? Whats that?
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September 1st, 2009 at 15:16
My dear Reg, I’m going to be 50 next year…and I still haven’t “grown up” and I have no intention of it.
Enjoy life to the fullest and don’t worry about expectations or pressure.
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September 1st, 2009 at 09:55
i love bullshit!! it’s one of my favorite games, but i haven’t played it in so long! i might have to get it going this weekend!!
September 1st, 2009 at 09:15
Welcome back from Mexico!
Mmm, I think you’re way too hard on yourself.
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September 1st, 2009 at 09:09
LOL! Darlin’, I’m 51 and still don’t what I want to be when I “grow up.” There are way too many interesting things to learn in life to be stuck in one little box! Just enjoy it all!
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