I’m starting to feel like I might have missed out on something moving from Dubai to Canada when we did. I look around here and everyone has friends that they’ve grown up with and ‘call over’ or go to visit them whenever without hesitation. And I struggle to have that kind of closeness with people. I find it takes so much effort to see people and it just ends up being easier to stay in and do things by myself.
I’m sure it’s not just that we moved when I was 16, but I’m sure it had a lot to do with it. It’s not that I don’t have childhood friends who I have that same sort of comfort level with, it’s just that giving them a visit will cost a lot more than some gas, seing as most of them are halfway across the world. There was someone that lived close to where I lived in Canada (neighbouring city isn’t quite close, but closer than being in another Country)… but she’s more focused on her husband than anything else and it’s just different hanging out with old friends compared to hanging out with old friends, and her husband who I don’t know that well… who happens to be a very opinionated English man. Hah. Don’t get me wrong, of course I love them… but I’m just trying to make a point.
Not quite sure where I’m going with this post… and it seems I’m suffering from that lately. I start a post but don’t quite know where to take it after I get most of what I want to say out. Moving here was definitely a good move, but I hope I can start figuring some of this stuff out soon.