We’ve only just begun…

It’s raining outside. I feel amazing after a run with Dante1, some push-ups, sit-ups and a quick shower. How did he creep into my love for rain? It used to be Franz’s1 thing. Is nothing sacred anymore? Though I’m glad Drake1 and I never actually had any memories in the rain… though I’m not sure there’s anything that could compare to that kiss with Franz. Even now2 I get lost in my thoughts for a good minute or two reliving that passionate moment. If only Franz was as mature emotionally as he was sexually… if only… yadi yadda yadda.

I do wish it had worked out with Franz way back in 1995 but then again, I never would’ve experienced everything I have since then. And they are not the sort of experiences I would wish to do away with. So many boys, then men… and then some boys pretending to be men. Dante asked me a really good question today, ‘when do you think you’ll be ready to get into a serious relationship?’.3 I said, ‘that won’t happen for a very long time… I’m good and broken this time D.’

He seemed to understand. Almost three years ago he got his heart shattered into a million little pieces and was left to pick up the pieces half way across the world without so much as a broom. He’s taken his time, but he’s ready to love again. How’s that for hope? Just when I thought I had lost mine. Knowing that someone like Dante (he has issues – and now add trust issues to that) can be ready.. well, why can’t a hopeless romantic like me? One day… one day…

Until then, I’ll be rambling rather aimlessly for a while so get comfortable.

Footnotes:
  1. name has been changed to protect the innocent[][][]
  2. literally, just now[]
  3. In my head I said, ‘When Mario (name has been changed to protect the innocent) gets tired of f******* me…’ but[]

responses to “We’ve only just begun…” 2

  1. LOL Sorry Web-Betty… I probably should’ve put some sort of a disclaimer at the beginning of the post. I’m doing well – mostly. Potentially losing my mind but that is yet to be confirmed. Miss you!

  2. Wow. You do put it all out there, don’t you. You make me wish I was younger, hee hee.

    I haven’t visited in a while Reggie, I hope you’re doing okay. 🙂
    .-= Web-Betty´s last blog ..You are an obsession… =-.

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