What a sweetheart

He came online today, just to say hi. And it really made my day. I know it doesn’t mean anything, but it meant the world to me. I know it seems silly… and that it seems like I’m hanging on to something that isn’t even there. But it’s not like I’m putting any sort of meaning to this action… I’m taking it for what it is. A dear friend of mine doing what he can to show me he cares. That’s all I can ever ask of anyone really.

I think that Don L’s1 advice was the best I’ve ever gotten. He suggested that I try not dating for a while, and to be honest it’s been great. I’ve gotten to know myself better. Especially with regards to friendships and I’ve been able to see the things that made me insecure in relationships. Funny. Apparently, I’ve always been insecure about the same things in friendships but just never noticed it because I had other “more important” things to be insecure about. I’ve had a ball of a time hanging out with the girls2 and I’m actually enjoying being single and not really having a ‘boyfriend’. Sure, I miss the company3 and certainly miss the intimacy (again mostly with *him*) but meh.

In other news… I’m sick. Again. Though I think I’m going to go to my doctor this time. One of my moles seems to have gotten bigger, and is protruding quite a bit. (panic) I’m going to the Bank tomorrow morning to see if I can get an increase in my loan, so I’ll give the good doctor’s office a call and see if I can book an appointment for sometime later this week.

And before I go, I just wanted to wish Kelly1 a Happy Happy Birthday! Love ya babes!

Footnotes:
  1. name has been changed to protect the innnocent[][]
  2. and of course some guy friends[]
  3. I mostly miss *his* company[]

responses to “What a sweetheart” 4

  1. April: I think that’s true anywhere really… and maybe that partly explains why I have the need to write a public journal… because writing in private just doesn’t work anymore.

  2. @ Trench: that’s exactly why I DON’T want to do K2, because “everyone is doing it” —

    @ Fragile: You know, one of the major issues in the U.S. is that we internalize all problems when they occur, when sometimes, things just happen, and there’s nothing anyone can do about it.

  3. Trench, well it feels a little silly because we’re not even together you know? lol it’s complicated.

    Thanks for the welcome. I just wish I had more time to play around with it…

  4. I dont think its silly to feel that way. When my wife was off with her family for a month in the Mainland, it felt good even when she sent a little postcard to say hello or left me a text message on my phone.

    Welcome to the k2 bandwagon. I’ve been using kubrick since the beginning and I’ve seen the following grow like crazy!

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