Yes. I am back.

I’ve missed being here. I’ve missed being me. And I can’t say that I’m back at 100% or that I will ever be. I gave a lot of myself to someone who1 didn’t deserve it, and some of it was stuff that you just can’t take back. So I’m working. I’m working on getting me back to me, and my life to being my life.

Oh what a life. I’ve lived a great life actually… though somehow muddled in mediocrity. I’ve always focused on how I feel and not really on what I accomplish in my life but I think it’s about time I change that. I’ve proven to myself that I can feel great. Now it’s time to prove to myself that I can be great2

This blog was down for a long time due to the weirdest chain of events but all that matters is that Rebecca worked wonders to get me back online3.  And so now, the only challenge is finding time to write… coherently. Which I promise4 to do very soon…

In the mean time, I leave you with some5 words from Paul Greene‘s song called ‘Work Love Dance Trust’ which I can’t quite get enough of right now. Footnotes are my own comments, because it’s fun:

Work like you don’t need the money,
Love like you’ve never been hurt6,
Dance like nobody’s watching,
You’re gonna get what you deserve7.

Trust like you’ve never been lied to8,
Fuck like you’re being filmed9,
Choose what you wanna believe in,
But you’ve gotta be free!

Have a great week everyone10

How have you all been?

  1. obviously []
  2. insert scared face here – I hate sounding cocky! []
  3. with no real help from GoDaddy, as helpful as their person in charge of the twitter account was []
  4. myself []
  5. cliche []
  6. but don’t love the person who’s hurt you before []
  7. above all, you deserve respect!! []
  8. again, don’t trust the person who has lied to you before! []
  9. or like everybody’s watching *wink* []
  10. yeah, this post should’ve really come out on Monday – but let’s pretend it’s a short week, k? []

Gravity

I first did this with ‘A Beautiful Mess’ by Jason Mraz here. And I had a hard time choosing what song to drool over next but since his recent Album release and subsequent CD release gig, this song has crept it’s way back into my heart – despite being off of his last album, and not the recent one. Continuum is an incredible album that got me through 2008 like nothing else could have, and if I had to pick a favourite it would be ‘Gravity’. This song can stop me in my tracks, no matter what I am doing1.

The slow tempo, the guitar riff, the ‘Ooh’s at the beginning by the backup signers and the opening chords evoke the image of a low-lit room where two lovers are holding each other tight… never wanting to let go. And when John starts singing… I. just. melt.

Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down

Whoa I’ll never know
What makes this man
With all the love
That his heart can stand
Dream of ways
To throw it all away

Whoa Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can’t sustain
Like one half could
It’s wanting more
It’s gonna send me to my knees

instrumental

Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can’t sustain
Like one half could
It’s wanting more
It’s gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity
Stay the hell away from me
Oh gravity
Has taken better men than me
Now how can that be?

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where keep me where the light is

Granted the lyrics are a little more cryptic than the last song that I talked about, but a lot of John’s stuff is. I think its better that way, so we can all apply the song to any situation. I think Gravity is the first song I’ve ever loved as much that was about more than the lyrics. I’m sure I’ve mentioned this at one point or another, but I love words. And for me to like a song because the of music really says something.

This song could make me dance. I’m not an interpretive dancer, but it could make me do it… I feel the music pulsing through my veins that fervently when I listen to this song2. Watching him play this live on Tuesday night made me love the song even more; watching him play each note and feel it with his entire body… you just can’t help but become enchanted.

Have you heard this song? What do you think?

  1. it can also intensify fornication for me but you didn’t need to know that… []
  2. I won’t go on about how I feel like John’s thoughts and feelings from when he wrote this song are also pulsing their way through me… oh crap, I just did that didn’t I? Oh well… []