I’ll just come right out and say it: this wasn’t a good year for me. In fact, I could probably go so far as to say that life hasn’t been good since November 2011. There were definitely bright sides; those things that kept me going and gave me hope for the future. Mostly lovers (albeit brief were their appearances in my life), friends and my family.
“People are people”, a good friend said to me when I complained to a friend about something that annoyed me holiday season. People are people. You can’t live with them, you can’t live without them. I’ve seen many people come and go in my life this year. More people have left than I really care to think about; mostly because it always makes me sad to think that someone is no longer in my life but Que Sera Sera.
I think it’s fitting that as 2012 comes to a close I’ve been moping around at home, feeling sorry for myself because my body is full of aches and pains from whatever flu virus has infected me. As the day wears on, of course I’m starting to feel better and I may actually go out tonight but we’ll see. One step at a time. I’m going to take a nap first, then have a hot shower, then make turkey congee for dinner. If I still have energy, I’ll get dressed and celebrate the fact that this wretched year is over. If I don’t have the energy, I’ll stay home, put on a few movies and celebrate the fact that this wretched year is over.
Regardless of what I do, I want to say thanks to everyone who has been in touch and has been asking about my plans for NYE. I may not get to see you, but it isn’t because I don’t want to. You mean the world to me; you made it possible for me to survive this year and I don’t want to imagine my life without you.
Happy New Year <3