When all you feel is blue

Sometimes you just have to force yourself to leave the house. Sometimes forcing yourself to do things you would really rather not be doing is the one thing that can make you feel better. Even if ‘feeling better’ only really means that you’re ignoring the problem; as long as it puts a smile on your face, I think it’s acceptable.

I have found myself in an interesting situation and I don’t know what to do. I was in hibernation over the holidays, mostly because of all this and partially because I felt the need to disconnect. Of course I didn’t disconnect completely; I still visited sites and answered tweets or messages that I got (for the most part) but I didn’t post anything. I barely even read what others had to say.

I had so much going on in my head1 that I just couldn’t take anymore information. But once I woke up on Monday, it was like a huge cloud had been lifted and I began to see things with some clarity. Though it has gotten easier to deal with things, I still feel empty in the mornings. I’m sure it’ll get easier to deal with too, but I’m not sure I want to. Sometimes, I’m not sure it’s worth it.

This weekend, even though I was really not in the mood, I decided to make plans with people. Including going over to my parents’ place on Friday night. What a fun night that turned out to be. We had just finished dinner and I had the urge to play board games but they only had Bingo… so we played. Such fun! I even won $3!

When that was done, I noticed we were all still lingering around the dinner table so I suggested we play rockband in my brother’s room in the basement. They were apprehensive at first, and when we started to play my Dad was having trouble with the drums but he┬ápersevered2 and came out doing quite well! We played until 1am!

I got home and didn’t feel empty when I looked at my bed for once, and that can only be a good thing. Even if I was only temporarily distracted from my feelings.

How do you deal with negative feelings? Do you face them head on or ignore them?

Footnotes:
  1. I still do[]
  2. making me love him even more[]

responses to “When all you feel is blue” 5

  1. I’m going through this right now too. Unexplainable vague blue feelings. I think tonight calls for a good long cry. Sometimes that’s the best medicine for me.

    (Oh, and I found you through Blogher.)

  2. I can certainly relate to how you feel and in truth I tend to be a more private person, which a lot of my friends don’t understand.

    Personally, I try not to ignore my feelings, as it is very easy for me to do, but I don’t think it is usually in my best interest.

    However, with that said, I can also spend too much time thinking about stuff, so I find that I must walk a thin line between thinking too much and not thinking enough…

  3. I have been in a really ‘blue’ mood lately too. No energy for anything. But I walked out to the shops today, even though I don’t really feel like going out, and it was really nice and pretty everywhere. I noticed all the little details that you sometimes only notice when you’re on your own and quiet.

    That night with your family sounds really fun. I actually miss my family a lot, part of why I’m feeling blue. We played rockband and Christmas – I was so surprised at how they took to it and really enjoyed it! Such great fun when it brings everyone together ­čśÇ

    I’m glad you had a good time anyway, it was nice to read about.

  4. I wanted to sit and sulk at home but dragged myself and my sister out to the movies instead. Made a difference. I’m realizing that healthy distractions are needed to pull me out of a funk, even if temporarily. Helps to remind me of the times where things weren’t so blah. So with that up feeling, I got a surprise on Sunday that I wouldn’t have been able to receive/accept/compute had I not been out of my funk.

    Don’t know if that’s facing my feelings or ignoring them, but it’s something.

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